I have

And here the words - they spill In all my time, I have listened, cried, laughed, and sang I have breathed deeply and exhaled slowly, slept soundly and stayed awake I have learned, remained stubborn, sought new perspectives, and dreamed I have sat silently, stood loudly, shook in fear, buckled in shock I have reflected, …

Time

How time does love to just fly by. And fly by fast, it does. I have been a mix of so many things lately. One being more anxiety. I have a great awareness of this which I believe is a positive. Just simply knowing that anxiety is creeping in more than it had been and …

No Escaping

Every day. Every minute. Most seconds. I can not escape you. She says she'll erase you from my memory but I can't fathom. Why do your words play on repeat in my mind? I know what everyone sees is not real. This pain, so deep, is outlasting my strength. Every. Single. Day. I wonder if …

Days

I am not even quite sure when I last wrote an entry here. Time continues to fool me. Being in this state makes time feel as though I've been sleeping only to wake periodically surprised to hear of the date. There are absolutely moments when I see. Clarity. But they are fleeting. As we work …

Before Then After

I look back at pictures points in time all before and I wish, I wish that I could go back to that time to before even the day before where I took a picture of my couch the one I'd like to sell but probably never will the pattern is so busy, so unique and …