13 Years Ago

It was just a short 13 years ago I was washing the kitchen floor, my belly uncomfortably big as it stretched to hold you, keeping you safe and warm and nestled. The phone rang. It was the doctor. "How do you feel about having the baby tomorrow morning?" You were a scheduled C-Section planned for …

Some days

Some days I just want to cry and some days, I just do Some days I roll all the windows down in the car and sing loudly to the music playing on the radio and some days, I hide behind my sunglasses and retreat into my head Some days I run with strength and energy …

Honest

Can I be honest? I am scared. How will I support myself? How will I have enough money? I feel as though on so many levels, I have regressed in my life. My dream is gone. As I watch shows, movies, and friends live their lives, I harshly realize that my dream will never be. …

Dream

So real. A house boat. Floating. An attached dock. With jet skis. The dock fiercely moving with the energetic waves. "Don't you get scared?" "I am use to it." Emotions rising. Holding back tears. Memories of these times flood my mind. Suddenly a big push and the dock smacks against the wall. She is jerked …

Once Upon a Time

I remember running off the bus, talking - or rather yelling - to my mom as I ran down the street, excitedly telling her the "gossip" of the day. I was 6 maybe I remember racing my bmx bike down the street with my next door neighbor Bobby. I saved up to buy that teal …